I meant to record my exact feeling a long time ago. I felt it again today and told myself I had to write it down for Ploy to know how I felt later in her life....
Today I droped you off at school as usual. You have been so brave and so good since you were in the kindergarten. I can just actually "drop" you off at the entrance and ... off you go! no crying.. no sad-looking that would break my heart at all, NEVER. Sweetie, you're so wonderfully brave. A lot of your friends still have to be accompanied by their parents through the entrance. I asked you if you need me to to do that and you said no.."no need, mom." You got of the car, in a further away drop-off area for "older" kids. You told me to drop you off over there as the one closer to the entrance was jamed with other cars. You said you can walk and told me not to worry. I have been so impressed with you so many times already. Like I said, I've felt this feeling so many many times. (I just write it down today..sorry.)
Today, you got off the car with smile. After checking that you close the door not tightly, you opened and closed it again. (You always check that for me even when the teachers close the door for you - and usually it never closed properly and you're the one who always fixed it for me.) Then you turn around and walk happily into the school... just like that. You didn't know that I looked at the back of you as long as I can, even when I turned the car around. I had wanted so badly to park the car and run to kiss you one more time before I left.
Sweetie, you made me PROUD. You always do.
Love you very much.
